Hey, again.

So someone commented say that i’m only 16 and i should live my life. I agree I should be living my life (btw, thank you for your comment). But the problem is I can’t break up with C (my boyfriend) because I love him and can’t hurt him and what if breaking up with him is  a HUGE mistake?

OH! and the situation worsens…

C knows. B thinks I should’ve flat out denied it when C asked.

Pretty much he said “You like A”.  At first I was like “Ha ha ha.. NO!” and then He was said “Don’t lie.” and I felt really bad and realized maybe its better to get this in the open… maybe its not but I think I have to tell him. And I’m freaking out by this point but I say “It’s a tiny little crush and I love you and want to be with you so it doesn’t matter” and then it got ugly. I’m not gonna give you the entire conversation but he pretty much said figure out what you want and he’s REALLY hurt and betrayed that I have a small crush on his bestfriend since he was little. *feels horrible*. and it is really bad cuz we’re never gonna be able to talk the same way again and I’ve sorta messed up their friendship. (A doesn’t know about any of this)…

So we’re still together. It’s a little awkward right now and he’s gonna be mad at me until I no longer like A and I told him I’ll just make it go away but you can’t just banish your feelings and emotions like that. And it’s hard as I realized yesterday.

Since I’m helping A with this E thing he always wants to know whats happening and my input but always when no one else is around. I skipped half of english and the end half of english media to hang out and talk to A. BAD!!

Then afterschool we (meaning all my friends) we’re just hanging out, about to organize a game of soccer and A, E,G (also a girl) and I were “horsing around” and like A was trying to trip us and we were wrestling him and stuff when E’s old ex-boyfriend who still loves her but they’re just friends now F, comes over. And A and I are like wrestling and stuff just playing around and F’s like “boob punch her!” and A’s like “NO!” and I’m obviously like “NO!!!” Then a little while later F’s like to A “Why are you touching her and play fighting and stuff… she has a boyfriend!” at this point A practically snaps away from me like he was pulled by a super strong magnet and faces F and is like “You’re the one who told me to punch her in the boob!” F’s like “Yeah So? I’m not the one touching her! She has a boyfriend!” and A’s like “I’d never punch her in the boob!” And then people played soccer.

Anyways. Trying to give C some space and trying to make some space between A and I.

So, gotta go volunteer with B. :)

ttyl.