A Couple Days Later… (after the whole “What Do You Do When You’re A 16 Year Old Girl…”

Hey, again.

So someone commented say that i’m only 16 and i should live my life. I agree I should be living my life (btw, thank you for your comment). But the problem is I can’t break up with C (my boyfriend) because I love him and can’t hurt him and what if breaking up with him is  a HUGE mistake?

OH! and the situation worsens…

C knows. B thinks I should’ve flat out denied it when C asked.

Pretty much he said “You like A”.  At first I was like “Ha ha ha.. NO!” and then He was said “Don’t lie.” and I felt really bad and realized maybe its better to get this in the open… maybe its not but I think I have to tell him. And I’m freaking out by this point but I say “It’s a tiny little crush and I love you and want to be with you so it doesn’t matter” and then it got ugly. I’m not gonna give you the entire conversation but he pretty much said figure out what you want and he’s REALLY hurt and betrayed that I have a small crush on his bestfriend since he was little. *feels horrible*. and it is really bad cuz we’re never gonna be able to talk the same way again and I’ve sorta messed up their friendship. (A doesn’t know about any of this)…

So we’re still together. It’s a little awkward right now and he’s gonna be mad at me until I no longer like A and I told him I’ll just make it go away but you can’t just banish your feelings and emotions like that. And it’s hard as I realized yesterday.

Since I’m helping A with this E thing he always wants to know whats happening and my input but always when no one else is around. I skipped half of english and the end half of english media to hang out and talk to A. BAD!!

Then afterschool we (meaning all my friends) we’re just hanging out, about to organize a game of soccer and A, E,G (also a girl) and I were “horsing around” and like A was trying to trip us and we were wrestling him and stuff when E’s old ex-boyfriend who still loves her but they’re just friends now F, comes over. And A and I are like wrestling and stuff just playing around and F’s like “boob punch her!” and A’s like “NO!” and I’m obviously like “NO!!!” Then a little while later F’s like to A “Why are you touching her and play fighting and stuff… she has a boyfriend!” at this point A practically snaps away from me like he was pulled by a super strong magnet and faces F and is like “You’re the one who told me to punch her in the boob!” F’s like “Yeah So? I’m not the one touching her! She has a boyfriend!” and A’s like “I’d never punch her in the boob!” And then people played soccer.

Anyways. Trying to give C some space and trying to make some space between A and I.

So, gotta go volunteer with B. :)

ttyl.

What Do You Do When You’re a 16 Year Old Girl Who Has Boyfriend She Loves Very Much And Has Been With For Almost 2 Years Realizes She Likes His Best Friend Who Likes Her Friend Even Though Her Friend Is A Tease Who Wouldn’t Mind Going Out With Him But Doesn’t Really Want To Because She Has Better Options and You Being The 16 Year Old Girl Is Helping Them Get Together Even Though Your So Confused About Your Feelings…?

God… My life feels like a manga…

Okay so as every one knows I have a boyfriend of almost two years and I love him very very much! And he loves me. :)

Now enter in his best friend… A. A likes my friend E. Whos a major flirt and a little desperate for a boyfriend. I’m not trying to be mean I love her and I think shes a great person but can be a little harsh and mean to boys even though she doesn’t exactly mean to be.

Well A asked me if E would go out with him and now that’s a whole big thing. E said she would go out with him and give him a chance. He has yet to ask her out. While helping E see the good things about A and helping A get E to go out with him I have done THE stupidest thing EVER!…

Possibly fallen for A.

OH SHIT!!!

It’s not that I don’t love C(boyfriend) because I really truly do but I don’t know where this is coming from. I’m so confused. I even went online to find some advice.

People are mean. They pretty much asked me why I liked A I have a boyfriend and truth is I don’t know!!!!!! I’m sooo confused!!

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!! i really truly honestly forever love love him!!

So then why do I have feelings for A? Who I’d like to mention is my friend as well and I see him more than C. Because A and I go to the same school as C.

I’ll explain more in the morning. Its late and I want to finish my outline for sociology project so I can talk to C before bed.

Thats a good sign right? :)

 

ps HELP!!!!!!!

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That’s all the views I’ve gotten since I started this blog. I didn’t start it to get noticed or anything. Or to be read by anyone. I don’t really care. I just enjoy posting things here. Though whenever I read what I’ve posted I feel really juvenile… *sigh*.

God I’ve got sooo much work to do. I really shouldn’t be posting anything. I’ve got an essay to write on the question: What are the most signifigant lessons our world today can learn from the rise/fall of the group of people you are studying?  in my case that group of people would be the Sumerians. sheesh. I have NO idea what to make my thesis. At all. I’m so tired of this project. Ergh. It’s worth a lot in History, a bit in English and even less in Science yet its still a fair amount and over three subjects. Grr.

Also I’ve got to think up a really specific social issue to do my final culminating project for ASP (anthro, pysch and soc) on. (the project is for sociology). As well as making a bibliography for the integrated Sumer project. And what else? English Media culminating project research too. OH! shit! I have to study for my science test and do my science lab report!! fuck. I’m screwed. Notice how my writing and composedness has broken apart as I type? *laughs*. I’m tired.

Had my first job interview on Friday. Gonna work at Leons. Fun. I guess it’ll do for my first job. I really want the job and for my first interview I thought I did really quite well. :)

Hm… Oh yeah! Athletic Banquet coming up. Already got my ticket. Yay free for athletes. I don’t know if being on the Tennis Team counts as being an athlete but still I get in free so yay! The venue looks really nice. All I need now is to find a dress and shoes. Black and white themed. Goody. Not too pleased about that. Though I did try on the sluttiest black dress in the world today. It was tight as all hell but stretchy fabric so I could breathe, strapless and barely covered my ass. Surprisingly it looked GOOD! on me. Made my legs look nice and long. :P

Anyways. Long post.

ps YAY! I turned 16 and got lots of presents when I invited A LOT of people to my party (couldn’t narrow down the list). :)