…have been… odd. They’ve actually been pretty great. Yet something Brynne said has come back to haunt me. I’ve thought about it before. Long before. Brynne just said it again. She said that I’m going to have to break C’s heart eventually. She doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to break mine. Thats sad. That makes me sad. I know that. I’ve had that feeling since the beginning. I never wanted him to love. Yes I did but I kinda thought it’d been better if he didn’t. I don’t want to break him. I’m stupid and would rather he be happy. Yet at the same time I’m a very selfish person who doesn’t want anyone to hurt and everyone to be happy.

In happier news. I did something stupid that I’m happy about. I don’t feel like going into detail, I’d rather have it all in my head. But it was worth it. It was nice. Fun I guess. In a way. I like C. Alot. Sometimes it’s good to like someone as well as love them. I feel like something isn’t enough. I just don’t know what. I’m confused right now and I keep smelling french vanilla cappuciano and I’m really craving one!

Cappucianos Always, Moi!