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Sorry for the long no writingness. ^_^ Been a little busy. I can’t really update you entirely because it’s just too much to explain but as needed I’ll explain bits. Okay, new facts you need to know: C is in Calgary. Yes I know, CALGARY! for a week I think. I never did get an answer when I asked for how long. I’ve been hanging out some new people you do need to know about for now. As per usual B and L.
New “Cast Members”:
S: Hilarious, good friend. Female. Germphobic, Hypocondriacish, Diseasephobic, likes her prescribed medication too much but in the “drug abuse/addicted” sort of way.
T: Currently crushing on B. Funny, idiot. Boy. Still better than most.
A: Friends with C. Idiot. Daredevil.
wow. sorry I have to stop. I just realized this is pretty dangerous stuff…I wish I could just not…I dunno. I have to go….
Love Moi, like I love Toi.
Tobogganing. That’s all I want. I want to go sledding in the new, fresh snow before it gets trampled! ARGH! Yet my mother has to find every excuse for me not to go! It’s frustrating! Why can’t she just see that I just don’t like planning things to diligently. I like spur of the moment “I’m going out be back soon” kind of plans! Like seriously! I’ve got my cell phone and what trouble am I going to get into? I just wanna go freakin’ sledding!!! I don’t have a plan! Basically I’m gonna get some friends with sleds (seeing as mum sold mine) or C and just be like “Hey you wanna go sledding later today/ tomorrow?” and they’ll be like “ya” and then I’ll be like “okay, when where, cya there!” It’s that simple! ArGH! I’m frustrated!
Frustrated and Annoyed, Moi
…have been… odd. They’ve actually been pretty great. Yet something Brynne said has come back to haunt me. I’ve thought about it before. Long before. Brynne just said it again. She said that I’m going to have to break C’s heart eventually. She doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to break mine. Thats sad. That makes me sad. I know that. I’ve had that feeling since the beginning. I never wanted him to love. Yes I did but I kinda thought it’d been better if he didn’t. I don’t want to break him. I’m stupid and would rather he be happy. Yet at the same time I’m a very selfish person who doesn’t want anyone to hurt and everyone to be happy.
In happier news. I did something stupid that I’m happy about. I don’t feel like going into detail, I’d rather have it all in my head. But it was worth it. It was nice. Fun I guess. In a way. I like C. Alot. Sometimes it’s good to like someone as well as love them. I feel like something isn’t enough. I just don’t know what. I’m confused right now and I keep smelling french vanilla cappuciano and I’m really craving one!
Cappucianos Always, Moi!
